Fear nothing, least of all defeat, for such fear will prevent you from living.

Wander into the wilderness until your blisters bleed, then keep wandering.

Beat, batter, and bruise your body in the backcountry, for such physical exhaustion will cause your heart and mind to explode with life.

The absence of success does not equal failure; the absence of an attempt equals failure.

Let your sweat sting your eyes; let the sun scorch your skin; let the winter wind whip your face.

Let boulders and bark toughen your fingertips.

Savour the taste of dirt and dust in your throat.

Breathe deep the perfume of fallen pine needles baked in the August heat.

Get down on your knees and watch the insects work.

Deprive yourself of sleep to watch the sun wake up.

Get to know the birds, flowers, mushrooms, mosses, and trees by name. Don’t stop introducing yourself to them, and they won’t stop introducing themselves to you.

Remember that grizzlies, tornadoes, and dreams are meant to be chased.

If nobody has the courage to go with you, then have the courage to go alone.

Most people are dead long before they die. Not me. I’m going to die living.

-Jody McMurray, 2011

Lusk Pass to Baldy Pass

The desire to hike Lusk Pass in the middle of February was borne out of a need to resurrect my remote wildlife cameras, which had been sitting idly on the coffee table for the past week, waiting for me to reformat their SD cards.  After bagging a few lucky mug shots of a total of four cougars at the north end of Highway 40 and the west end of Sibbald, I decided it would be really smart of me if I spent some time poring over topo maps of the same area searching for subtle clues between the contour lines that would whisper "cougars walk here".  So I did, and I chose Lusk Pass.  

Fender gazing southwest into one of the countless cutblocks
Lusk Pass is, by summertime standards, a completely dull and tiresome trail that skirts around the east side of a massive cutblock under the north face of Mount Baldy.  Mercifully my winter standards are much lower, and by February I am bottling up so much stir-crazy insanity that a trail like Lusk is miraculously transformed into an exhilarating adventure of epic proportions with scenery that'll knock your socks off.

I gathered up two willing friends - a triumph in itself since I'm continually burdened with the viscerally lonely task of hiking alone - and we were on our way to the Lusk Creek day use area at the westernmost end of Sibbald Trail.  The path angled up a steep embankment before levelling off and winding through a pine forest.  Turns out my experienced words of wisdom, "Don't worry, you won't need snowshoes, there isn't any snow out there right now," were words I'd soon come to regret.  

The shaded path through the trees climbed gently at first, then became more steep in several sections.  The snow was mid-shin, and the deep powder made climbing the hills a gruelling task.  I was thankful for my gaiters, but wished I'd brought my snowshoes.  I took lots of rest breaks, disguised as "layer down" and "look at the view" breaks, so Will and Lyndon wouldn't know I was out of breath.  

Alder leaf 
The trail skirted around the east end of numerous cutblocks, which afforded spectacular views of Mount Baldy to the south and McConnell Ridge and Mount Lorette across Barrier Lake to the west.  I was searching in vain for a prime place to set up the cameras, but, although the trail seemed conducive to kitty-cat activity, I needed large bare tree trunks to strap the cameras to.  The only trees along the side of the trail were clumps of shrubby willows and alders, and there's no way to strap a Moultrie to those.

Aaaand...then we lost the trail.  We had been cruising along at a fair clip when all of a sudden the trail fizzled out into a log jam of deadfall.  I consulted my Kananaskis Trail map app, and it suggested we had strayed somewhat east of the true path.  We bushwhacked west into the cutblock and scoured the landscape for evidence of a trail.  The snow-covered terrain gave us no hints.  We continued westward until my app said were standing on top of the suddenly-invisible trail, then we resumed our general southwesterly direction of travel.  

 Sunny and beautiful, but a tricky trail
The going was rough.  Even though the fresh deep blanket of snow made the landscape appear peaceful and welcoming, disguised beneath was a tangle of snarled snags, hidden stumps, and fallen timber.  We all tripped and stumbled our way across this cursed cutblock, still searching in vain for the elusive trail.  I was so focused on interpreting my map app as I plowed along that I wasn't paying a great deal of attention to my footing.  Suddenly my right boot got snagged under a log and I crashed to the ground, slamming my left knee against something very hard and very sharp.  The pain was blinding, but I didn't want to cry in front of Will and Lyndon so I bit my lip until it hurt worse than my knee.  This hike sure wasn't going as planned.  I shook off the pain as quickly as I could, gave the offending fallen timber a swift kick, and we continued searching for our non-existent trail.  

The farther we explored this cutblock, the farther my app said we were getting from the trail.  So I took a 90 degree turn east into the forest and pushed my way through the trees until I stumbled across a skidder road.  Surely this was our trail.  I was about to be a hero!  

A few hundred yards down this road, it became clear that this was certainly not our trail.  Hero status revoked.  We were on some kind of logging road, but it wasn't our path.  No matter!  I felt guilty for leading my friends astray but they seemed to be having a good time regardless.  Even though we were just hiking on a skidder road, it was a beautiful skidder road, surrounded by stunning peaks.  Not a cloud, not a breeze, views for miles, fun friends; it was awesome.

Eventually our skidder road led us to a T-junction, accessorized by a trail map.  According to the map, if we turned left, we'd press farther south towards the Powderface Trail.  If we turned right, we'd loop back onto the Baldy Pass trail and wind up back at the truck within 3 km or so.  The idea of turning back towards the truck was unbearable; I was having more fun than I'd had in months!  Lyndon was on a bit of a schedule and needed to leave the trail within two hours or so.  I didn't want to go back, but neither did I want to be the one to drag people farther into the backcountry than they wanted to go.  I'm famous enough for that.

Snag of fallen timber; Mount Baldy peeking out from behind
Mercifully, Will stepped in and saved the day with a stroke of genius that hadn't even occurred to me.  He pointed up to the outlier of Mount Baldy and suggested, "We should go up there." Wow!  Why didn't I think of that?  Now, in hindsight, perhaps he was referring to the small hill in front of the outlier, but at the time all I could see was the seemingly unattainable ridge miles out of reach.  Aww, wouldn't it be amazing if we made it up there?  And who cares if we didn't?  It would be brilliant fun trying.  Will commented that the trail-less terrain it didn't look all that difficult.  I pointed out that it would no doubt be substantially  more difficult than it looked from where we were standing, but that just made me want to try all the more.  With some coaxing, I got Lyndon reluctantly on board, and we set off up the steep and hazard-strewn slope through thigh-deep drifts of snow.  In places, it was so steep and slippery that I was relying on hands and knees.

Will surveying the valley below while I calculate the odds
of attaining an impossible ridge that was likely days away
Turns out Will was aiming for a rock halfway up the small hill in front of the outlier.  I didn't even know there was a rock there because I was so hell-bent on bagging this ridge.  A ridge that, now that I'm reviewing my topo map in the comfort of my office, would clearly have represented about 1,800' of gain.

But struggle on we did.

I knew the guys were getting uncomfortable; the deep snow was saturating their jeans above the knees with frigid water and caking the cuffs in layers of ice.  I was impressed though: they didn't whimper or whine or complain.  And what a refreshing change not to be asked to carry other people's gear!

Wheatgrass at the foot of Baldy's outlier
Once we had clambered up to Will's rock, I gave them an 'out' and suggested we turn back.  We clearly weren't going to attain any ridge within the confines of February's short daylength; not without headlamps and survival gear and tents and sleeping bags anyways.  And I still needed to find a sweet spot to hang my wildlife cameras.

We turned back and slid and stumbled our way back down the difficult terrain to the T-junction, and reluctantly (on my part) headed back towards the truck.  The trail was still behaving more like a logging road than a trail, which was nice because we didn't have to walk single file.  Finally we were seeing wildlife tracks as well.  There was a great deal of damage done to the local hardwood trees by elk and moose gnawing on the bark, and we also saw several bunny highways.  Where there are bunnies and ungulates, there are big cats.

It took some searching, but we finally located a few prime trees on which to hang the cameras.  I set one to still photo mode and the other to video mode, and hung them at mid-shin level; one on either side of the path, and aimed them in opposite directions to obviate my age-old problem of only capturing photos of wildlife bums.  I was a bit hesitant to hang the cameras in that location because it was still a good distance from the truck and at some point I would need to plan for a return trip to swap out the SD cards.  Because there had been so few branchless trees on the hike in, I resigned myself to the fact that I'd have a longer hike back in a few weeks, and locked the cameras to their trees.

Cow parsnip
The trail back to the truck was comparatively easy-breezy.  It was downhill all the way, and there was an actual path that didn't require careful negotiation over and around unseen hazards.

Suddenly Lyndon's keen eye spotted a herd of elk standing stock still on a hill many hundreds of yards away.  He pointed them out and I couldn't for the life of me see actually see them until they started striding away.  How beautiful they were!  It is always such a special treat to get a glimpse of wildlife in their natural habitat.  I felt blessed to have had a chance to watch them trot away.

A few months earlier I had done this last half of our loop; the Baldy Pass section.  I lost a pink scrunchie on the trail, and I'd always meant to come back and search for it.  I am the butt of many good-natured jokes at work because of my fascination with scrunchies and my dogged determination to not let them fade from fashion.  I set the boys to searching for this lost scrunchie on the way back down the hill.  Whether they actually did or not is uncertain; alas, I was not reunited with my accessory.

It is usually a bittersweet moment to return to my truck from a hike:  bitter because I never want a hike to end, and sweet because I'm usually exhausted from the adventure and ready to call it a day. When I got back to the truck after the Lusk Pass Loop, there was nothing sweet about it for me.  It is rare for me to travel a relatively un-epic trail in a relatively un-epic season and be dismayed that the hike has ended.  But somehow this was just one of those hikes.








Lineham Ridge and Rowe Lakes - 17.6 km - July 16, 2011

When Nicky first invited me to go with her to Waterton National Park for a weekend of tenting and hiking, I was inwardly skeptical.  Waterton?  For real?  Now how interesting could that possibly be?  As a die-hard Kananaskis freak, I am biased against any other park that claims to be amazing.  Admittedly, I had never actually been to Waterton but somebody sort of pointed it out to me once from Lethbridge, and it didn’t look all that exciting from where I was standing.  What I failed to comprehend, despite my above-average intelligence, is that one cannot fully appreciate the grandeur of a mountainous national park when viewed from an Esso station in Lethbridge 130 kilometres away. 

I agreed to go with her, but only out of a sense of obligation.  She was, after all, going to accompany me on the five-day backpacking trip to Mount Assiniboine in August.  And any friend willing to put their life on hold to help me achieve that dream deserves to have me tag along on their delightful little trip to Waterton.  It was the least I could do.
Crouching low to photograph a lance-leaved stonecrop
I am emphasizing my self-righteous skepticism about Waterton for two reasons:  firstly, because it is truly how I felt at the time and this book is meant to be entirely factual; and secondly, to admit to the world that my assumptions about this boring-sounding park could not have been more embarrassingly inaccurate.  I am not above publicly eating a little crow.

One thing this trip had going for it, I mused, was that the forecast was for warm clear days.  If I had to spend the weekend camping and hiking in a knock-off Kananaskis, at least I could get a good tan out of it.  Besides, the weekend away would give me a chance to try out my new Marmot sleeping bag and tent that still had the price tags on them from last summer. 

The after-work-on-Friday drive from Cochrane down to Waterton went by surprisingly quickly.  The scenery was familiar until we reached Pincher Creek and headed south the final few kilometres to Waterton.  I was immediately struck with the wild and desolate beauty of the bare red rock summits surrounding us, and was briefly impressed that perhaps this wouldn’t be so bad.

Our campsite was an understated lakefront location at the south end of the townsite.  In order to save on cost, we had mutually agreed to park ourselves in the communal campsite of H block.  H block was a grassy field pock-marked by ground squirrel dwellings and feces from the Maltese terrier yipping and yapping from a few tents over.  We couldn’t drive in to our site; the parking was all in one big lot a few dozen yards away.  This meant that each tent site was closer to its neighbor than in a standard campground.  There were no trees for privacy.  It didn’t really matter; we would be spending more time on the trails than in the tents.

Setting up my new Marmot tent for the first time was exciting.  The tent itself was together in a matter of minutes.  The fly was a different story, and required me to think with the same parts of my brain that I would use to solve those spatial relations puzzles in IQ tests (typically the only parts of IQ tests that I fail).  We weren’t expecting any severe storms or polar elements to come sweeping through the campsite, so the unconventional manner in which I erected my tent fly would certainly suffice.
Glacier lily and springbeauty (Aquilegia flavescens and Clytonia lanceolata)
I took a walk around the campsite with Nicky after scarfing down a supper of Alphaghetti and peanut butter on bread.  We explored the higher-end neighbourhoods in the campsite, and snuck over to the prestigious community of behemoth fifth-wheels and motorhomes that would dwarf a Greyhound bus.  We even stole a peek inside the communal bathrooms in this part of the campsite:  their showers and toilets certainly put ours to shame.  We were determined to walk the extra ten minutes to use the fancy bathrooms in the morning.  A pretty walk along the lakeshore brought us back to our shantytown where we turned in for the night.

Getting to sleep was a challenge for me, despite the fact that I was relatively warm and comfortable and had a good supply of midnight snacks to keep my mouth entertained while my brain was occupied with TV shows downloaded on my iPhone.  There was a substantial din emanating from the group of tents where the Maltese terrier lived.  This was a very large family that showed no respect for the shut-up-after-11-o’clock rule.  They were laughing and talking loudly, children were shrieking, and the pooch evidently loved the sound of its own voice.  My headphones were no match for the commotion. 
Pulsatilla spp.
Despite finally falling asleep hours after midnight, I was wide awake and ready to go by 6 a.m.  A long, hot shower in the sparkling clean facilities for the rich, spoiled campers was the perfect start to my day, and I was eager to see what calibre of trails Waterton had to offer.

Our trailguide indicated that the parking lot for Lineham Ridge was located 10.5 kilometres down the Akamina Parkway.  I set my odometer to “0” at the start of the parkway and watched it closely when it approached 10 km.  11 km came and went, but there was no indication of any trailhead.  Then I was struck with the realization that my upgraded mud tires might be throwing off the accuracy of my odometer.  I decided that we had likely far overshot our target, so we pulled a U-turn and retraced our steps.  And sure enough, we found the trailhead for Lineham, at what my truck believed to be less than 9 km.  I made a mental note of this fact for future trails.

Trail choked with devil's clubs
We parked, got out, stretched, and started packing our bags and organizing our gear.  Neither of us wanted to squeeze the thick trailguide into our packs, so I had the clever idea of photographing the important pages with my iPhone and then stashing the phone in a small pouch in my pack.  Brilliant!  Surely this stroke of genius made up for my epic fail on the tent fly construction.

The trail to Lineham Ridge climbs gently through a thick forest for the first few kilometres.  Within a few hundred yards, we passed a younger couple going the same direction.  We greeted them, and carried on.  A short distance later, they passed us again as I was crouched to the ground, enthusiastically photographing a brilliant display of wildflowers.  We figured we’d likely be slower than them overall, since I’m a shutterbug that can’t resist capturing every last little bloom on film.  The trail broke out of the trees for a short distance as it traversed a grassy slope ablaze with punches of color from all parts of the rainbow.  This brief break in the trees afforded great views of the ridges ahead to the west.  Once back in the trees, we came across the hiking couple once again.  They were standing over a pile of bear scat, and the girl was poking at it with a stick.  They looked troubled. 

“Do you know what kind of poop this is?” asked the girl.
Nicky examining the bear bed
“Yep its bear poop,” we answered, almost in unison.  Most of the colour drained from their faces.

“Are you serious?”  she asked, incredulously.  She paused, then queried, tentatively, “Have you ever actually seen a bear?”

“Oh yeah, tons!  That’s why we’re here!” I exclaimed with enthusiasm.  But no sooner had the words escaped from my mouth than I realized what a grave error I’d just made.  What little colour had remained in their faces had now sunk to their toes, and their mouths were agape.  Suddenly struck with the realization that I may have single-handedly obliterated their enthusiasm for this hike, I back-pedaled madly.  “Oh but you hardly ever run into bears on trails.  And if you make a ton of noise they’ll run away when they hear you.  And they really don’t attack people all that often, unless you threaten their cubs or their food.  And this trail is really heavily used, so the bear probably knows to keep his distance.  And this poo is obviously several hours old so he’s probably long gone by now,” I babbled, frantically trying to save their day.  Nicky imparted her infinite knowledge of bear safety to the trembling pair, and we continued on past them.  Looking back over my shoulder, I could see them hesitating, probably trying to decide if continuing on was worth the risk.

A short distance further, Nicky and I, now in the lead, stumbled across a brand new pile of bear poop.  This one was still wet.  I put the back of my hand near it to see if it was still emanating heat.  It wasn’t.  But it was still one of the freshest piles I’d come across in my hiking career.  Most of the forested trails Nicky and I hike in Kananaskis still afford very good visibility deep into the trees, since there is little to no undergrowth.  But here in Waterton, the trees on either side of the trail were choked with six foot high ferns, shrubs, and grasses.  It was as if we were hiking in a jungle.  A bear could have been foraging three feet off the trail and we wouldn’t know it.  It was this set of circumstances that got our blood pressure rising a bit.  I pulled out my safety whistle and fired off several shrill cautionary blasts.  Nicky yodeled loudly.  I called out my standard noise-making cry, “Fender, come!”  I adopted this call when I used to hike alone.  If other unseen hikers heard me, they wouldn’t think I was as strange perhaps as they would if I was yodeling or singing off key.  The call always confuses my dog, and he looks up at me inquisitively as if to say, “Um, I’m right here.”  I’m okay with my dog thinking I’m nuts but I don’t want other hikers to doubt my sanity.

I happened to look behind us, and saw our young hiker friends, quivering in their boots, a few dozen yards behind us.  I hadn’t realized they were still behind us.  Most certainly, though, the sight and sound of us seasoned bear “experts” suddenly pulling out whistles and bear spray and starting to yell, was the only convincing they needed to turn tail and head back to the parking lot.  This hike was not for them.

And so we proceeded up the trail, hollering and whistling and creating quite a din so as not to risk surprising the bruin that was obviously somewhere in this neighbourhood.  And then we came across the bear bed.  A very large patch of ferns and grass on the edge of the trail had been trampled heavily into a nest for our ursine friend to lay his furry head the night before.  I’m not sure about Nicky, but I know I was becoming more unsettled by the minute.  I was eager to break free into the alpine country where we would have significantly better visibility.
Breaking out into the meadow below the ridge
I became more unsettled every time we approached the noise of Rowe Creek.  The sound of rushing water all but erases any noise one might be making to warn bears of one’s presence.  We upped the decibel level and carried on.

At the 5.2 km mark, the trail broke free of the trees and emerged into a breathtaking and highly photographable emerald meadow surrounded on three sides by the walls of Mount Lineham (2,728 m) and Mount Rowe (2,446 m).  Here one is faced with a junction and a decision to be made:  eastward up a steep switchbacky slope to Upper Rowe Lake, or westward, traversing the steep walls of a bowl and eventually climbing to Lineham Ridge.  Since the title of the trail in our trailguide was “Lineham Ridge and Rowe Lakes” and not “Rowe Lakes and Lineham Ridge”, we had our hearts set on crossing that ridge off our list.  We bore right and headed west towards Lineham Ridge.

Shortly after embarking on this fork of the journey, we ran into problems.  The trail completely vanished.  There were a few untouched patches of snow covering the trail, and once we crossed those patches of snow, relocating the trail became impossible.  We knew the general direction in which we were to proceed, but were unable to find a particularly safe way to do so. 
Looking ahead to Lineham Ridge
Flummoxed, we sat on a grassy knoll and fired some food into our bellies.  I enjoyed a can of tuna salad, crackers, and a V8.  As we ate, we pondered our options.  Calling the day a wash and heading back to camp wasn’t an acceptable option to either of us.  But the only other option we could see was to continue skirting the inside wall of this enormous bowl, trail-less, as it curved north and then east to a point somewhere opposite us.  One major obstacle to this seemingly doable plan was that, once the wall of the bowl curved north, there were three major avalanche zones that must be crossed before reaching the comparative safety of loose shale on the opposite side of the bowl.  We had no avalanche safety gear. 

Sometimes our hearts speak louder than our heads.  That must have been the reason that we agreed to try to get across these three avalanches as quickly and as quietly as possible.  We picked our route and made a break for it, stopping after each avalanche zone on an island of rocks and trees to plan our next maneuver.  A 200 metre tall tower of old, dangerous snow loomed above us on our left.  My heart was in my throat.  Although crossing three avalanches was likely the stupidest thing we did that day, it certainly wasn’t the most difficult.  Nope, that part was still coming.

Struggling to climb the slippery shale (photo Nicky Blackshaw)
We obviously survived our three brushes with death, otherwise somebody else would be writing this book from the third person.  Once across the snow, we were onto a steep section of very deep and loose shale.  There was still no obvious formal trail, though we could barely make out a few patches where it looked as if other humans had once ascended this section in switchback fashion.  In order to get closer to our ridge, we needed to go straight up this scree slope.  We had about 200 metres of gain ahead of us, over a lateral distance of the same.  This was going to be a 50% grade.  And it was going to suck.

We agreed upon a general route and started out.  Blessed with the advantage of giraffe legs, I was soon in the lead.  The going was so challenging and required so many frequent breaks that it quickly became an every-man-for-himself situation.  Climbing this deep loose scree was not unlike ascending a mountain of marbles, or like being in one of those pits of plastic balls that kids love so much at amusement parks.  We’ve all been in one of those at some point.  But not one of us has moved quickly through that stuff.  My boots were sinking into the pebbles up to my shins.  Because the rocks were so loose, each step forward invariably resulted in three quarters of a step back.  I was on my hands, trying to give myself the advantage of four-wheel drive.  It made a 10% difference, if that.

I think it was the overwhelming futility of it all that originally started the tears.  I was spending every single ounce of energy I possessed, and only getting a 25% return on my investment.  With the general assumption that for every step forward I slid back three quarters of a step, I must have climbed that hill three times over in an attempt to get to the top once.  Poor Nicky wasn’t faring any better.  And the heat!  Scrambling over sharp red rocks in the hot summer sun was not unlike baking oneself in a terra cotta oven.  The rocks cut up our hands and burned our knees, but with true grit we persevered. 
Sticky Jacob's ladder (Polemonium viscosum)

The top of the scree slope did not equal the top of the ridge.  But it did indeed very nearly equal the end of the misery.  There was only one more challenge ahead of me, and it was quite a silly one.  We were crawling northwest up this scree slope.  We knew that we eventually needed to curve back east.  And so, near the top of the scree, I saw a potential shortcut through a thicket of bonsai bushes.  Surely just beyond that group of ridiculous-looking stunted trees would be our proper trail.  Nicky went around the thicket; I went through it.

Now, if one is going to bushwhack through a normal forest, one usually has to push aside branches of trees at shoulder, neck, and head level to get through.  When one is charging through a thicket of bonsai trees, the prickly branches are at ankle, knee, thigh, hip, waist, chest, shoulder, neck, and head level.  And then I had the realization that not only were these silly short trees prickly from the unacceptable placement of their branches, they were also thorn bushes.  I realized this too late in the going to make any alterations to my route.  I was actually growing quite angry with the bushes.  Why didn’t they grow properly?  What kind of stupid bushes would grow on this stupid scree slope anyways?  What a stupid place to be a bush.  Idiots!  And then, triumphantly, I broke free of the tangle of thorns, bleeding yet jubilant.  And there was the trail!  I plucked broken branches, lichen, and needles from my hair and out from under my shirt and socks, and scampered onto the path.
Red line shows our path across the avalanche zones

The trail here became much more merciful.  Being on a south-facing slope, we were now hiking on snow-free red rock.  There were small metal orange flags marking our route as it switchbacked once and continued westward along the ridge to the summit.  The deep red of the rock beneath our feet was contrasted with bright purple, green, and yellow splashes of colour from the sticky Jacob’s ladder (Polemonium viscosum) and mountain buttercup (Ranunculus eschscholtzii).  The final ascent to the summit involved hiking with significant exposure; looking over the edge to the other side of the ridge revealed an unnerving view to a small tarn 400 metres below.  Nicky and her vertigo abstained from the final few dozen metres of ascent.  We took several photographs of the remarkable view in all directions as well as the cornice of snow and ice that capped the ridge precariously as it hovered above the three avalanche zones we had recently crossed.  I got down on my belly, despite the sharp shale on my bare knees, and photographed brilliantly-coloured clusters of wildflowers.
Finally atop the ridge
Our descent down this formidable summit was decidedly easier than the ascent.  Despite being no closer to finding a trail down in the bowl, we did get the added enjoyment of boot-skiing down the mountain of marbles that had taken 45 minutes and countless tears, cuts, and scrapes to climb up an hour earlier.  Time to descend the steep and slippery shale slope?  Six minutes.

Once at the bottom of the shale, we decided to circumvent the whole dangerous three-avalanche-zone scenario by bushwhacking through a thick forest and heading straight for the emerald meadow.  The theory was that we’d be safer not disturbing the unstable walls of snow and ice.  Why poke the bear?  Nope, it would be much more sensible to crash through thick stands of scrubby coniferous trees and then ease ourselves down a steep wall of boulders. 
Cooling down the carotids with ice in a bandana
Heat stroke was a very real threat and to allay the inevitable we wrapped big snowballs in my bandana and held the ice pack on the back of our necks in turn.  What relief!  I have always been convinced that a bandana is the single most versatile item of hiking gear one can possess, and I treasure mine for keeping my head cool during the 30 degree heat of that day. 

Bushwhacking is not fun.  It is tiring, aggravating work.  One gets covered in cobwebs, pine needles, and innumerable cuts and scrapes covering such rugged terrain in this way.  But it beats the heck out of quarreling with an angry avalanche. 

On the way down the trail we made a slight detour to the Lower Rowe Lake.  By this point I was apathetic about side trips that would add unnecessary time and kilometres to our already-epic adventure, but Nicky was keen to see the lake and so I obliged.  The lake was a pretty shade of deep forest green, and despite the fact that there was a sodden Ritz cracker and unidentifiable ooze floating on the surface, Nicky waded in to cool down.  I found an abandoned pair of RayBan sunglasses on the lakeshore and tried them on.  They fit comfortably and I had nearly decided to take them home with me – after all, would the hapless hiker who had lost them actually hike all the way back up Lineham Ridge to find them?  Not likely.  And yet my conscience would not let me keep them.  I arranged them neatly on a boulder before we headed back down the side trail and rejoined the main path. 
Lower Rowe Lake
Lineham Ridge was a magnificent trail.  It effortlessly proved me wrong in my preconceived assumptions about the monotony of Waterton National Park.  The ridge had all of the features I look for in an epic hike:  remarkable distance, spectacular vistas, creeks, lakes, meadows, forests, scree, and an outstanding ridge that affords grand views for seemingly hundreds of miles.  By the time we returned, exhausted yet satisfied, to the vehicle at the 7 hour 40 minute mark, I had decided that Lineham Ridge certainly must be one of the best hikes I’d ever enjoyed.  Surely tomorrow’s hike, Akamina Ridge, couldn’t possibly be any more challenging or gratifying. 
Waterton National Park was about to prove me wrong again, on both counts.

Akamina Ridge and Wall Lake via Forum Lake - 18.4 km - July 17, 2011

Akamina Ridge will forever stand out in my mind as the single most grueling and spectacular hike of 2011.  The entire trail spans 18.4 kilometres; no small feat at the best of times.  But compounding the intensity of the hike was the fact that we had completed the 17.6 kilometres of Lineham Ridge and Rowe Lakes less than 18 hours earlier.  Other mitigating factors included severe exposure, deep snow, intense heat, and a knee injury.  Despite the trials and tribulations of Akamina Ridge, to date I have found no other trail as outstandingly worthwhile as this.
Welcome sign about 2 km into the adventure

Getting an early start on Akamina was a top priority.  Not only did we want to get the most challenging parts of the trail behind us before the sun blazed high enough in the sky to scorch us to a crisp, but we had a long drive home ahead of us once the hike was complete.  Fortunately, getting an early start on any hike is actually quite straightforward when one is camping in the great outdoors.  The sun rises at an unspeakable hour.  Strict avoidance of bathroom breaks throughout the black and chilly night dictates that by 6 a.m. one’s bladder is full to bursting.  Sleeping in is simply not an option. 

And so we rose with the sun, broke camp, loaded up the truck, and headed for the trail.  Remembering to compensate for the erroneous odometer rendered inaccurate by my mud tires, we easily located the trailhead 10 km from the Waterton townsite on the Akamina Parkway.  The first 1.5 km of the trail climbed generally west through the chilly shade of the forest before cresting at 1800 metres and then dropping 50 metres over the next 0.7 km to a very important junction.  At this junction, leisurely amblers generally continue west another 2.7 km to Wall Lake.  Eager to not be classed as leisurely amblers, we headed south at this junction towards Forum Lake.  We knew that we would be looping back around Wall Lake near the end of our journey.

Early morning dew drops
Immediately after the junction, our trail began to climb more intensely, gaining 200 metres over two kilometres.  The scenery here was overpoweringly uninspiring, although there was a mildly pleasant detour to a mildly interesting waterfall.  The final 50 metres to the shore of Forum Lake passes over slippery boardwalks that traverse a boggy wetland dotted with few-flowered anenomes before rocketing out of the trees and into an avalanche zone.  An entire village of tamarack trees had been mowed down by a thunderous snowslide at some point in the previous months.  Each tree was listing at 45 degrees under the burden of megatons of heavy spring snow.

Icebergs adrift on Forum Lake
Forum Lake is a beautiful cerulean tarn tucked into the bowl created by an outlier of Akamina Ridge (2,565 m).  Large photogenic icebergs of aging blue ice floated, unmoving and silent, on the languid surface of the lake.  I paused here for several minutes, capturing the other-worldly colours and textures around me on film.

From the northeast shore of Forum Lake, the trail heads generally west-northwest to a low point on the backbone of Akamina Ridge.  I use the term “low point” loosely, since negotiating 150 metres of gain through a thick forest, in which the trail was obliterated with deep snow, and then laterally across the icy slope of the avalanche was required to gain a foothold on said backbone. 

Tamarack trees mowed down by a snowslide
Losing sight of a trail is a common problem for Nicky and me.  The reason for this, however, has nothing whatsoever to do with a lack of skill or experience.  We often lose our trail because we insist on hiking unhikeable trails in inhospitable conditions.  We hiked Akamina Ridge on July 17, 2011.  One would expect that timing a hike for mid-July would ensure snow-free conditions, but one would be wrong.  The avalanche slope on Akamina Ridge is north-facing.  It is also situated at well over 2,000 metres above sea level.  It is also in Canada (although just barely).  These three factors together ensured that a fair chunk of our hike that day involved struggling through deep drifts of the white stuff.  In shorts.
Timidly crossing the avalanche zone
As we rounded the north shore of Forum Lake, our trail deviously disappeared under a blanket of snow and into dense forest.  Our route-finding here became quite challenging.  A group of three hikers had passed us earlier, so at first we thought we’d simply be able to follow in their footsteps as they bushwhacked on snow and through the brush.  It wasn’t quite as simple as that, however.  Patches of deep snow were interspersed with stands of snowless thick trees and shrubs.  We would follow half a dozen fresh footprints in the snow, only to lose the path quickly as the snow gave way to a swath of trees and dense rooty undergrowth.  We were able to see several possible distant patches of snow the hikers may have gone to from here, but determining the correct path of snow to ain for was a process of trial and error.

And keep in mind that the route we were forging through the trees on the heels of the other hikers was not the exact trail.  We knew this.  The other hikers knew this.  But we were all just charging through the trees as roughly accurately as possible in the hopes that once we were through, the route across the open avalanche zone would be apparent.

Looking down towards Wall Lake and up towards ridge
It was.  But the joy of its obviousness was offset by the technical difficulty of crossing it.  The slide was only a few hundred yards across.  But it was steep, deeply snow-covered, and loose.  We were venturing into this territory without avalanche safety gear or training (do not do this!), and so we nervously wanted to cross the slide as quickly as possible.  It was in this state of frightened haste that I twisted my right knee.  I felt a mildly uncomfortable “pop” but thought no more of it.  At the far edge of the avalanche slope the hill became unbearably steep and required hands-and-knees scrambling in order to haul ourselves onto the backbone. 

We had eagerly been anticipating this backbone, since its warm and dry countenance appeared to promise safety from the avalanche as well as reprieve from the discomfort of hiking in knee-deep snow in shorts with no gaiters.  The moment I finally heaved my weary body onto the long-awaited crest, I was immediately struck with a disquieting reality.  This was the narrowest ridge I’d ever been on.  Five hundred metres below, straight in front of me, was Wall Lake.  And I mean straight below.  I grabbed onto a bonsai tree for safety.  It would only have taken one false step forward to go careening over the precipice and straight to the bottom of the lake. 

I looked behind me towards Nicky struggling up the last few difficult metres. 

“How does it look?” she called. 
Sticky Jacob's ladder eking a meagre living from bare rock
“Ummmm, it’s kind of steep up here,” I replied, downplaying the severity of the situation knowing that she abhorred heights and quivered in the face of exposure, “but I think we’re finally on a path at least.”  Soften bad news with good.  There really wasn’t enough room up on this ridge to find a place to sit and pull out the GemTrek map to confirm our next step, but the trail appeared obvious, heading right and slightly down the ridge to the north. But after exploring this route for a dozen yards or so it became quite clear that we were mistaken.  The trail vanished completely.  Continuing in this direction would lead us straight over a cliff and down to Wall Lake at a faster rate of speed than would be compatible with the continuation of life.  Nicky was getting upset and visibly shaken by our predicament. 

I parked her in a safe spot and gave her a shrub to cling to.  I consulted the map which seemed to insist that we needed to head south up this ridge, not north.  I glanced up in that direction and then back to the map.  There had to be some mistake.  To the south, the ridge was a menacing and insurmountable wall of boulders.  One false move to the right would land you in the drink far below.  One false move to the left would send you screaming down the avalanche field we’d just risked our lives to cross.  And turning back really wasn’t an option, since doubling back over that precarious snowslide would crush our spirits if not our bones.  There really was no choice but to go forward and negotiate our way over this massive wall of boulders.  I decided to scout ahead in an effort to determine whether this was a foolhardy suicide mission or a foolhardy adventure.  I shared my plan with Nicky.

“Umm, okay, so here’s the deal.  I’m pretty sure that 40-storey wall of boulders is our trail,” I stated, pointing in the direction of our foe.  I saw all the colour drain from Nicky’s face. 

“Are you serious?  I can’t do that, Jody.  There is no way I’m going up that.”

“It will be okay.  Let me just run up ahead a ways and see if I can find the proper path.”

“Promise not to leave me up here!” Nicky called after me.

“Yeah, I’ll see you back at the truck, Nicky!” I replied sarcastically.  “What do you think I’m going to do, leave you up here?  Of course I won’t leave you up here!  Don’t be ridiculous.”  Now, for those readers who may now be thinking that Nicky is coming across as a bit feeble here, let me take a moment to correct you before I continue with this narrative.  When it comes to hiking with me, many have volunteered over the years.  I cannot count the times I have heard the request, “Jody, can I come hiking with you sometime?”  This request is always met with an eagerly affirmative response from me, since hiking with oneself does become tiresome.  Almost without fail, however, my new hiking partner either ends up asking me to carry their pack the rest of the way, or moans some kind of nonsense about exhaustion, or complains of blisters, and almost certainly refuses to ever come hiking with me again.  That is, they all did until Nicky came along.

Nicky has never refused a hike.  She rejoices in trail-earned injuries, she is interested when I point out the subtle yet fascinating differences between the fringed and northern varieties of Grass of Parnassus, she celebrates the adorableness of small furry mountain rodents, she taught me how to identify Chapurtia by its leaves, she bears with me uncomplainingly when my enthusiasm for photographing an insect delays our progress indefinitely, she always carries her own pack (which is notoriously heavier than mine) and she has never, ever, complained that a hike is too long, too exhausting, or too difficult.

And so Nicky's apprehension speaks volumes of how truly frightening the sight before us truly was.    

I scampered ahead to calculate the odds that continuing on this path would result in one or both of us not coming home alive.  I pegged the odds at 50:50.  Not great, but I felt reasonably confident that if we went slowly, we’d succeed.  Surely the ridge beyond this impossible wall of boulders had to be worth it; otherwise Akamina Ridge wouldn’t have ended up in our most-trusted trail guide.

There are no words or even photographs that could possibly accurately convey what came next, but I will try.  In order to picture the Terrifying Wall of Death, imagine several hundred boulders, each about the size of an SUV, stacked on top of one another in a pile 200 metres high.  The stack of boulders is resting atop a 500 metre precipice.  The boulders are bare and have no trees or roots or other vegetation that could safely be used for handholds.  In order to climb from one boulder to the next, one must stretch one’s body to its full extent, so that if one stands on tiptoes, one can just barely reach a little crevice or notch in the next boulder with outstretched fingertips.  Compounding the fear factor, the boulders are stacked at such angles that slipping to one’s right or left is highly probable.  But because there are no guardrails, such a slip could certainly be the last mistake one ever makes.  Compounding my own personal stress was the clear fact that I was suddenly in charge of Nicky’s safety as well.  Nicky is a tough girl, but she is terrified of exposure and suffers from vertigo.  Being afraid of exposure is a reasonable fear arising from a rational sense of self-preservation.  I do not possess this sense.  And so it stood to reason that I would be the foreman of this project.

Here’s how we conquered the Terrifying Wall of Death.  I would toss my pack over the hump of the boulder in front of me.  I would then stretch my body to its full length (almost nine feet), find a handhold, and haul myself up each boulder.  I would then brace myself in a variety of skillful ways to safely reach back over the edge of the boulder for Nicky’s hand.  I then pulled her up to the ledge to meet me, where I parked her until I could get up and over the next boulder.  I made great efforts to not look down to the lake below.  I also worked hard to give the illusion that I was not at all afraid.  I realized early on that showing my fear would not affect our ability to conquer this obstacle in a positive way.  And so I stuffed my fear down into the bottom crevices of my backpack and ignored it.  I could always pull it out later if I needed it.

The climb up this wall was unbelievably emotionally draining for both of us.  But when we were finally over this wall of boulders and soaring freely on a broad and verdant ridge dotted with bright splashes of fuchsia moss campion (Silene acaulis) and lavender sticky Jacob’s ladder (Polemonium viscosum), we gave each other a huge hug and breathed a collective sigh of relief.  We knew the hike ahead would have its own set of challenges – we could see them already – but we had annihilated the Terrifying Wall of Death and we were euphoric.

Fortunately, it was here, and not on the T.W.D. that the bottom of my pack ripped apart.  I noticed it when I sat down to have a drink of water and review the GemTrek map.  All of my gear was protruding from a large rent in the fabric.  I cleverly removed all of my gear from my pack, wrapped it up inside an unused jacket and tied the arms together, then stuffed the whole package back into the pack.  With all of my equipment tucked safely inside the jacket, it wouldn’t matter for now if the pack had a six inch hole in the bottom.  Nicky promised to help me keep an eye on the rip and ensure that I didn’t lose anything.
Looking back where we had come from

Once we had regrouped and felt ready to proceed, we started up the next part of the ridge.  There was plenty more climbing ahead of us.  Akamina Ridge, like many ridges, is shaped a bit like the Loch Ness Monster:  a long series of humps, with each one requiring an ascent to a summit and then a descent before ascending the next hump.  Akamina has a series of four humps, and we were on our way up the first. 

On horizon:  Kintla Lake, Glacier National Park, MT
There were another 200 metres of elevation gain between the top of the T.W.D. and the summit of the first hump.  This elevation gain was split evenly between a narrow grassy backbone and a severely steep section of narrow rocky switchbacks.  The narrow rocky switchbacks were only slightly less sketchy than the wall of boulders we had just surmounted.  And when I say the switchbacks were narrow, please understand that I mean that here the trail was approximately six inches wide.  If one needed to pause for a mental health break, one was required to stop with one foot forward of the other, since there was not enough room to place them side by side.  A few inches in the wrong direction and one faced the probability of plummeting 800 metres to the valley below.  Which, by the way, was in the United States.
Steer clear of cornices!
The summit of the first of four humps along the ridge is the highest point on the trail (2,565 m).  There are spectacular views south from this point into Glacier National Park, since Montana is a mere 1.2 km from the summit of Akamina.  To the southwest we could see the sparkling emerald waters of Upper Kintla Lake and massive skyscraping peaks such as Kinnerly Peak (3,031 m), Kintla Peak (3,079 m), and Mount Custer (2,708 m) stretching seemingly into the stratosphere.  The sky was a glorious shade of indigo, and there was very little UV protection between us and the summer sun.  We were heating up. 

One of several humps of Akamina Ridge, mountain goat in foreground
We sat at the summit and sent satellite messages home to reassure loved ones of our ongoing safety.  I gorged on peanuts and dark chocolate and took several photographs of Glacier National Park before we repacked our gear and carried on.  For the first time since the junction near the trailhead, we were descending briefly.  It felt wonderful!  As we crested the second hump we caught sight of a lone mountain goat grazing in a lush patch of vegetation in the dip between the second and third humps.  I started snapping photos of him from quite a distance away in case he became alarmed by our presence and fled.  I needn’t have worried; he stood his ground while we approached and passed him.  Nicky insisted that I give him his space.  I didn’t have my 500 mm Sigma wildlife lens with me, so of course I was keen to get up close and personal with this charming fellow.  The closer I got, however, the more irritated Nicky became with my intrusion into the goat’s personal space.  He didn’t seem particularly bothered, but I felt that venturing farther onto his turf would likely bring an unpleasant retaliation from my hiking partner.  I reluctantly steered clear.  Just beyond the goat, Nicky’s keen eye spotted a mother ptarmigan darting between the grass and the snowy cornice at the north edge of our ridge.  Upon closer observation, we counted one, two, three, four, five, six! little fluffy ptarmigan chicks peeping and scurrying about!  They didn’t seem the least bit troubled by our presence, and we watched them quietly for a while.  In fact, I got one photograph with all seven ptarmigans and the billy goat together in the same frame!  It was magical up there.
Red line traces the route ahead of us

Descending from the fourth and final hump of the ridge, I was beginning to feel the effects of the relentless sun.  There is rarely any shade atop a ridge, and Akamina was no exception to this rule.  My left shoulder and left ear were getting the lion’s share of the sun, and they had turned a vibrant lobster pink.  No matter, I thought, within a few days the burn would give way to a glowing tan (albeit lopsided in favour of my left side). 

As the ridge curved north and the grade eased before our final descent, we came across an enormous pile of grizzly scat.  Our cameras both immediately sprung into action to capture the drama.  Surely that bear had to be somewhere in the vicinity.  We had been unfairly denied a bruin encounter the day before on Lineham Ridge.  Weren’t we due?
Red line traces the route behind us
We had traveled 10.3 km from the trailhead when our ridgewalk came to an end.  From here, the trail made a hairpin turn to the southeast and rapidly descended laterally across yet another deep snowy avalanche zone.  The trail was quickly lost once again, but this time the footprints from the other three hikers were apparent for the next 1.5 km or so.  We jubilantly boot-skied down the steep slope, losing 300 metres of elevation in the first kilometre before curving east and into thick forest.  The new easterly direction of travel gave us an impressive profile view of the Terrifying Wall of Death, four kilometres as the crow flies, across Wall Lake.  

Once we’d made it down the avalanche slope and into the forest, we completely lost the trail once again.  We used visible landmarks and our GemTrek map to get a general idea of the direction we needed to travel to reach the northwest shore of Wall Lake.  As we emerged from the trees again and crossed a massive snow-covered meadow, I was suddenly stricken with an overwhelming wave of heat and light-headedness.  Yep, I had heatstroke.  My radiator had blown and steam was coming out of my valves.  I was nauseous, chilled, sweating, clammy, and roasting all at the same time.  We had been hiking for over six hours without shade in temperatures approaching 30 degrees.  I desperately needed to get to shade, but the nearest protection from the sun was Wall Lake and it was still a thousand metres away and we were off-trail. 
Grizzly scat on top of the ridge

I scooped up handfuls of snow and wrapped them in my bandana and held it to the back of my neck, my temples, and my forehead to cool down my overheated engine.  I pushed hard for the lake, apologetically leaving Nicky behind at some points in a desperate run for safety.  I knew we were still hours from the truck and I needed to get my health back up to 100% if I hoped to make it home.

The moment we finally left the hellish searing heat behind and oozed into the cool and moist sanctuary of shady forest was accompanied by an overwhelming sense of relief.  I didn’t feel any better, but I knew the heat would soon stop slow-cooking me from the inside.  It was on the final few hundred yards of cool muddy trail to the edge of Wall Lake that the bottom completely fell out of my backpack. 

“Nooo, you’ve got to be kidding me!” I groaned, as all of my gear splatted into the mud.  I slumped to my knees.  I didn’t have the strength to cope with this new crisis.  Nicky, seemingly still unencumbered by heatstroke, immediately sprang into action.  She picked up all of my bits and pieces and packed most of them into her own pack.  This was a necessary yet nearly unbearable blow to my ego.  I take great pride in the fact that nobody carries my gear, ever.  I protested weakly.  Nicky insisted, reassuring me that this didn’t quite count as somebody carrying my gear since it wasn’t really my fault, and she knew that if my bag was intact I’d be carrying my own stuff, heatstroke or no heatstroke.  She also solemnly vowed to never breathe a word to anybody that I didn’t carry my own stuff for the last five kilometres of Akamina Ridge.  And so, to acknowledge her generosity, I am now admitting it to the world.  Alright!  So Nicky carried my stuff, okay?  So what?  No need to make a federal case out of it.

My helpless misery was temporarily alleviated when Nicky exclaimed “bear print!”  We both crouched in the mud to photograph the perfect imprint of the front paw of a bear.  Where was that darn thing?  We took several nanoseconds to take in the splendor of Wall Lake.  Fatigue and heatstroke were extenuating circumstances in the decision to proceed without stopping long enough to appreciate Wall Lake beyond noting the staggering heights to which the walls of Akamina Ridge rose above it.  It boggled our minds that we had been up there hours earlier.
Suffering badly from heatstroke (photo Nicky Blackshaw)

As we rounded the northeast shore of Wall Lake and turned north away from the water’s edge, my heatstroke took an unfair turn for the worse.  I suddenly felt unable to continue.  I felt like I was going to throw up and faint and seizure all at the same time.  Through nothing short of a miracle, I did none of those things.  Again, the quick-thinking Nicky stepped up to the call of duty by taking my jacket and fanning me vigorously with it in the breezeless heat of the forest.  She soaked my bandana and I pressed it to my temples and the back of my neck.  Ten minutes later, I felt well enough to attempt to walk another hundred yards or so. 

We carried on like this; slowly, with me requiring frequent fan and wet bandana breaks.  And then the mosquitoes appeared. 

Wall Lake and the ridge where we'd been hours earlier
I grew up in north coastal B.C., so I am no stranger to biting insects.  Mosquitoes are irritating, black flies are ridiculously ruthless in their greedy appetite for blood, and horseflies are just plain mean.  But Akamina mosquitoes are worse than all three of those insects combined.  They were attacking us in swarms.  I could clearly make out little swastikas on their wings as they dive-bombed us by the thousands.  We doused ourselves in DEET, but the kamikaze mosquitoes would fly in first, swarm us and scrub off all the repellent with little brushes and buckets of soapy water, and immediately behind them the ravenous warrior mosquitoes had a clear shot at our acres and acres of exposed skin.  We had to move fast. 

Moving fast was a challenge in itself because of my long-since exploded thermostat.  I had to consider:  would I rather die secondary to complications from my brain reaching the boiling point and bubbling out my ears or would it be preferable to let the mosquitoes have their way and end up a mere pile of bones on the forest floor within an hour?  I opted to die from heatstroke, and we booted it.

And then my knee blew. 

As if a red hot poker had just been removed from the embers and stabbed into my meniscus, a searing jolt of electric pain shot through my knee and nearly dropped me to the ground.  What the &%$# was that?  I steadied myself and tested my knee’s ability to bear weight at the dead run required to out-maneuver the swarm.  Nope, no good.  My knee was done.  What on earth had happened to it when I felt that pop back on the slippery avalanche slope at Forum Lake?  Whatever it was, I couldn’t bear weight on that joint when my body weight was forward of the knee. 

And so I hop-ran down the hill, Terry Fox-style, with my left knee bearing double the weight it was designed to carry.  And I did this for over two thousand metres until we could see the truck, at which point I think I may have crawled the last few inches to my beloved vehicle, collapsed on the ground, and lay there on my back for an immeasurable period of time.
40 hot km in two days and I got nuthin' left

We completed this hike in nine hours and ten minutes.  The warm asiago garlic dip and two bite brownies that had both reached a distasteful body temperature in my truck did not stand a chance against our ravenous appetites.  We licked all the packages clean before swapping our hiking boots for flip flops, draining our canteens, and stretching out all of our screaming muscles. 

We then headed for home, a three hundred kilometre journey, during which Nicky nearly killed us both when she suddenly screamed in terror as if her life was ending and started frantically beating a poor hapless spider to a pulp with the brownie bag.  As the startled and confused driver of a two and a half ton vehicle hurtling down the single lane highway at great speed, I struggled to control the truck while my brain frantically tried to comprehend what the commotion was.  When I realized a mountain had been made of a molehill, I regrettably retaliated in anger at poor Nicky, who was still quivering from the near death experience with the minuscule arachnid hitch-hiker that had almost certainly meant to do her in.

Yes, the Akamina Ridge trail was one of my hardest-earned trail triumphs to date.  But it was worth every moment of agony.  Views like that cannot be bought except with the astronomical price of blood, sweat, and tears.  You get what you pay for.  Akamina Ridge, I will love you forever.